How other's see

Cold and unreasonable,

unperceivable,

so darkly cynical,

lonely and disposable

shallow and vengeful, this is typical?

sitting with my friend,

my own distinct pain

so very dry my pain is all alone

gave up my voice, I just gave it away

I took apart my grand deception

extracting this fuzzy crippled profession

as I dream in dithered multi-color in this black and white, clear perception

with it my narcissism trembles away

within the long dry summer days‐blind faith will lead us away.

drink of this old red twisted, bitter vein

so very tall, that my dried leaves won’t fall

the cool crisp breeze blows beneath me

ripping away the scabs that heal me

shimmering blue with this creativity

I dare not say in this harsh broken tone

turned off my glowing red neon light

I fell for you without a sight

thinking of taking that midnight journey

flirting with the illusion of possibility

finally I closed my disappointing eye

covered myself, and said goodbye.